How could I ?

I wonder, 

how could

the trees are not going cold

by the very morning rain

and how

they never get tired and mad

by place that they can't move yet

and they

fucking stuck in one place only

I wonder how

human can think so much things 

with no realizing 

what is thinking ?

I wonder why I could remember

lot of songs with uncountable note

I wonder how rain just pour down

by million and billion lil'water

come to the ground

dissappearing

and I wonder how

human can answer my stupid questions ?

but,

how could not I accept every single words

as it answer

as the most I wondering about.

huh ???

reckless in a fantasy

I do not know why, I

screaming out in a very long way

see and saw by a thousand bright lights

realized that I've been moving so far, I was

tragic

terrible

magic ?

things were done

trying to heal a painful scars

by the time,you

 would know who's your friends are

throw many get some

here Fay said that she love to geotouring

and I living on my fantasy

get dizzy bussy about all this stuff

movie has just inspiring me to write a story

once it's not about me

Loving you

love you
hurts me a lot
deny it
gets me cruel
and you use your joke and words
so I keeping me inside
this faking smile
this bad mask
being cold but burning
and you looking at this tiny eye
inside this fragile heart
I know
I was too afraid to told you this
things that I should telling for
makes you wait too long
till the chance bored at me anyway
like I lose you when the dawn come
and it disappear in the way home
are you trying so hard all these days?
to make me comfort beside you
sitting right by my side
try to make a chat
but I cut it offcall my name
but I ignore
try to play some fun
but I get mad
and act so bad
just if you were ...
sorry,
I'm sorry.

love you,
mend my heart
deny it ?
I'm giving up
so I'll keep you inside
till my heart strong
to moving on